小月心路

在老婆娘家的日子。。。

今天我们去了内蒙古中旗的一个水库区旅游，看到了传说中的蒙古包。。。

挺风和日丽的。。。

这边都是草原，和广西大不相同的景色。

总体感觉，气候少雨干燥，地广人稀，空气清新，气候凉爽。

有点我在美国时的感觉。。。

待续。。。

(Carter)
　　"Dear Edward,
　　I've gone back and forth the last few days, trying to decide whether or not I should even write this.
　　In the end, I realized I would regret it if I didn't, so here goes.
　　
　　I know the last time we saw each other, we weren't exactly hitting the sweetest notes.
　　It certainly wasn't the way I wanted the trip to end.
　　I suppose I'm responsible, and for that I'm sorry.
　　But in all honesty, if I had the chance, I'd do it again.
　　
　　Virginia said I left a stranger and came back a husband. I owe that to you.
　　There's no way I can repay you for all you've done for me,
　　so rather than try, I'm just goingn to ask you to do something else for me.
　　Find the joy in your life.
　　
　　You once said you're not everyone.
　　Well, that's true.
　　You're certainly not everyone.
　　But, everyone is everyone.
　　
　　My parents always said,
　　'Our lives are streams, flowing into the same river,
　　towards whatever heaven lies in the mist beyond the falls.'
　　
　　Find the joy in your life, Edward.
　　My dear friend,
　　close your eyes and let the waters take you home..."
　　
　　====================================
　　
　　(Edward)
　　"Good afternoon. My name is Edward Cole.
　　I don't know what most people say at these occasions, because...in all honesty, I...I've tried to avoid them.
　　The simplest thing is, I loved him and I miss him.
　　
　　Carter and I saw the world together, which is amazing, when you think that only three months ago, we were complete strangers.
　　I hope that it doesn't sound selfish of me, but the last months of his life, were the best months of mine.
　　He saved my life. And he knew it before I did.
　　
　　I'm deeply pround that this man, found it worth his while, to know me.
　　In the end, I think it's safe to say that we brought some joy to one another's lives.
　　So, one day, when I go to some final resting place, if I happen to wake up next to a certain wall with a gate, I hope that Carter's there, to vouch for me, and show me the ropes on the other side."
　　
　　====================================
　　
　　(Thomas)
　　"Edward Perriman Cole died in May.
　　It was a sunday, in the afternoon, and there wasn't a cloud in the sky.
　　He was 81 years old.
　　
　　Even now, I can't claim to understand the measure of a life.
　　But I can tell you this, I know that when he died, his eyes were closed, and his heart was open.
　　And I'm pretty sure he was happy with his final resting place, because he was buried on the mountain, and that was against the law."

 

 

 

归国已半年有余。。。许久没来我这块内心的小园地了，没什么特别的借口或原因。

只是。。。却是。。。很多的事发生。

见了爷爷最后一面，2007年11月24日凌晨离开了我们。这个操心了一辈子的家。有没有遗憾呢。。。

我哭了。。。

在南宁的五星级酒店某了份工作，在前厅。。。令我惊奇的是，我是唯一会英语的。。。不过半年后的今天。。。

那已成过去，我四月底辞职了。。。经理劝过我，但我决定了，我没得到我想要的，就这样。。。

谈了次失败的恋爱。。。在酒店工作时的同事。。。原因？很复杂。。。至少我这么认为。。。

但我付出了，很认真的去对待。。。不是常说有缘无份吗。。。也许吧。。。

虽然，26岁了。。。但突然我才发现，自己还是他们长不大的孩子。。。生活在这个家里，也要考虑他们的感受。。。

矛盾吗？我回来了，想外边的自由，在外边，害怕异国的孤独。。。完美，只好想想算了。。。

这次的四川地震。。。感受颇多。。。生死一线间。。。我也该开始学会感恩。。。学会珍惜。。。学会关爱。。。自己还活着。。。

苦恼，快乐，痛苦，幸福。。。这些生活本来的元素。。。只要还活着，就好好活下去。。。

家人的生活挺不错的，姑姑搬大房子了，叔叔买新车了，不久我们也会。。。会越来越好的。。。

 

 

 来美国6年了。一切都仿佛昨天。闭上眼睛，历历在目。明天，就是我回国的日子，美国再见。。。

朋友们再见。。。

 

完成!

 

 

4月21号，25岁了。

 

6年来，由于自己的原因，朋友不是很多。所以对于生日也不是很在乎。不收礼，不送礼。

 

但是很高兴，今年收到1份礼物，4份问候。

 

谢谢你们。

 

最近又有些失眠,但是班还要上......

 

原因,多方面的.要办回国的事,飞机票,汇钱,办回国证明,整理东西(很多东西不能带了)等等...

 

朋友家庭出了些问题...和他老妈闹矛盾,他妈说到这还哭出来了...两头都和我谈,让我开通一方...

 

心情方面...乔对我说,"你应该多交几个女朋友,这样在结婚前,知道自己喜欢什么样的女孩.不至于后悔."

 

我说:"会的." 可是,我连一个都没看见着...6年耐力也够强的了...别人都怀疑我了

 

看多了游戏的爱情,觉得自己一定受不了.所以对自己保护太多了...(有人说,你是不是男人啊!)我有自己的原则.(难道男人就不需要安全感吗?)

 

是的我是个很缺乏安全感的人,在女人看来就是不主动,没自信.(这也许解释为什么那个青蛙都有女朋友,而我却还孤傲...)

 

朋友对我说:"既然送上来,你不接受还是对不起她了."可是大家都知道她是十足的bitch!~~~~....(朋友:so what)

 

不过这都是过去式,现在说只不过是些废话...

 

"男人不坏女人不爱,这是真的"听乔说. 看来又一位女性给我上了这一课... 但是什么才是坏...

 

调理心情...回国又是与现在不同的生活.也许会试试女人眼里的坏男人形象...会有改观吗?